So my little Brother is up stairs playing on his Nintendo Game cube and my Sister and Mum are out riding the horse, yes I have a horse. I have quiet a few animals actually, I have 3 dogs Rosie is a Staffordshire Bull terrier and she's MY bitch. Charlie is a blue merle Collie and she's my Mums dog. Teddy is a weird cross breed I think he's part Westhighland terrier and some other dog but he was one of our first ever dogs. Our first dog was Sam who, like Rosie was a staff but also crossed with a Labrador and he always slept at the end of my bed. I loved Same so frigging much, I was heartbroken when he died. I came home from school to be told he had a heart attack and he's dead. Really sucked but anyway we also have 2 cats, Jess and Molly. Molly's been with us since before I was born just like Sam. She's black, white and brown and she's uber skinny. It's not like we don't feed her, she eats tons she's just old I guess and she also has a heart murmur. Jess is a more independent cat, we don't see her every day as she likes to explore the world. She's pitch black with green eyes and she's pretty evil. She's defiantly one to hold a grudge; one time she was accidentally stood on by my Mum but she didn't do anything right away she simply waited until my Mum was using the toilet and stupid Mum didn't lock the toilet door so Jess opened it and attacked Mum, it was fucking hilarious. As you know by reading this I also have a horse called Millie. She's pretty tall somewhere around 15 to 16 hands for you horsy people. I don't really do much with her she's more my Mums and Sisters pet than anyone elses. Then there's Gromit he's actually a Rabbit so yeah not a dog but he's my Rabbit. He's brown with floppy ears and he's a pretty dang big Rabbit.
I suppose that's it for pets, I've had all kinda of Dogs in my house over the years as my mum used to foster animals so we've had Cats, Dogs, Guinea Pigs, Rats etc.
Anyway getting on to other things, trying to find the right guitar to buy is a pain in the ass. Most of the time they're cheaper online but buying online can be a bit of a pain because you can't play and inspect the guitar before you buy it. Then there's the kind of music you want to play on that guitar and a little bit less of a point how you look with that guitar. That £250 Jackson Alex has does not suit him one bit at all. It's a little bit of a pain in the arse not to mention I don't have an acoustic so I kinda need to get one because you can't just have an electric all your life XD. Plus there's money. Money comes into everything and I hate it because I either never have enough or not have any.
I need a girlfriend. Come on everyone it wouldn't be a blog post by Pete if I didn't mention girls or sex or anything related to it. I swear it's impossible for me to find anyone though as I've said before and as a 16 going on 17 year old virgin who's never even kissed a girl it's on my mind a lot as I kinda feel not normal and I know you're probably thinking "why would you wanna be normal?" well I don't wanna be normal with everything I just wanna fit in socially and as a teenager the subject of sex comes up a lot.
I do wonder what peoples reactions would be if they read this though XD. I can't imagine people from college being happy about it. Don't think I'm an asshole, I wouldn't be doing the classes I do if I were an asshole and it's impossible for me to write every little thing into this blog and I did say this blog would be kinda bitchy. I say to myself in my head a lot "I'll never refuse to help someone" but that doesn't mean I'll help someone hurt someone else or anything it just means for example if I see a person crying in public on there own I'd go over to them and try to help. I like helping people it's kinda who what I do. I rarely get help back though, I guess maybe I'm too generous? That kinda makes sense I guess whenever someone needs a few pounds I'll help out like for example a couple of Fridays ago a guy called Joey needed £3 for the buss so I gave him £3 and he made a really big deal of thanking me and saying he'd pay me back. I bet you can guess what I'm about to write, YEP! He still hasn't payed me back and I don't really care all that much. It wasn't the first time I've lent money out and never got it back. In fact I've given a fair amount of money out to be people at college and never gotten anything back. To be fair a few times I've told them not to pay me back if it's been something like 20p or something but still my point is I'm a giver and I hardly ever receive anything back. Still I'll carry on helping when I can and continue to get nothing in return and occasionally disrespected after.
I should be buying myself new clothes soon, I only have two pairs of trousers and one pair of shorts. Even so the fact I have money and I'm spending it on myself makes me feel somewhat guilty. Christmas is coming up and I always get yelled at by my Dad for not getting anyone anything for Christmas. I don't have a job, I don't always get money and when I do I don't get to spend it on things I actually want I have to spend them on things I need like clothes and I apparently have to spend my money on everyone else. What's the point in giving me Birthday money if I have to spend on other peoples birthdays and I don't get to spend it on myself at all. It sucks that my Birthday is on the 29th of December yes 4 days after Christmas. Everyone cheeps out on me by giving me presents on Christmas and saying they're "birthday and Christmas presents" or when my birthday comes around they say things like "You got a lot for Christmas" and after all that if I do get birthday money then I end up spending it on shit I kinda don't wanna buy but have to.
I wish I was rich. Maybe I should enter the lottery for the first time ever, I doubt I'll get anything from it but meh. No one ever got anything by wishing for it I guess, I have actually do something about it. I am getting or at least trying to get qualifications so the rest of my life won't be so shit and I can do what I WANT TO DO!
I kinda wish someone would read this and give me some kind of feedback. I know my spelling and Grammar is pretty bad but that's not what I mean, I wish someone would give me advise on my life XD. I wouldn't want it to be someone I actually know unless I actually respect them. Then again I suppose their advise wouldn't be great as this blog doesn't show every inch of me, it just shows I'm a horny idiot who complains waaaaay too much.
Oh well I guess I'm done writing for now.
Take care non existent readers and D.F.T.B.A.
Tuesday, 30 October 2012
Monday, 29 October 2012
First half term holiday, some of my thoughts.
Well it's been a while since I posted on here. Last post was on the 8th of September so I have a lot of shit to say and I'm not sure I can get it all down in one post so I'll just do my best.
First up is college! It's been very....Interesting to say the least. Girls girls and more girls everywhere I frigging look and most of them are taken and snogging they're bf/gf infront of everyone. It's kinda sick the way they play tonsil tennis in such a public place although if I had someone to do that with I'd do as much as possible XD, anyway I'm one of two guys in my Health and Social care class so that always raises your chances a bit. Tons of assignments and not much time to goof off although because I'm me I somehow find a way to not do any work in class and somehow manage to get average grades. I guess if I actually did more in lessons I'd probably get really good grades but I'm a lazy shit and as I've said before I'd like some kinda social life.
So we have Alice, She's a sorta rebel, emo, punk, sexy, smart ass with blue hair, previously red that likes to wear bandanas and who doesn't show up to lessons as much as everyone else but is super frigging smart. She has tons of friends in the college so the only real time I get to talk to her is when we're in lesson. I have a feeling I could have fucked her in the toilets one time though, let me explain! I guess from the previous posts and by reading this one so far you must think I'm a right little shit who would fuck a chicken if he was paid to, trust me that's really not the case. I'm like the most innocent guy you'll ever meet; never even kissed a girl before anyway! Getting back to the story, Me, my friend Harry Reed, Andy Tylers (Girl who wants to be a guy but is actually kinda hot), and some other guy I don't know the name of but he's kinda nerdy so lets call him Melvin were all in the English block after college had ended just chilling and eventually people had to go leaving me and Alice alone. Alice from what I can tell is a very huggy, physical person so all the way through our talking and chilling session thing we had going on she was sat on my lap and hugging me etc. When everyone left we somehow got to talking about relationships and me being a virgin and her not having sex for 10 weeks and she said "I'm so fucking horny!" To which I reply "Well there's not much I can do about that." To which SHE replies "You could if you wanted to" To which I sorta bug out and say "I wouldn't even know what to do even if I did get to be with a girl". Now I may have missed out everything that happened that day because I can't remember everything but I know she was coming on to me so badly, linking that in with the fact she hadn't fucked anyone in 10 weeks I knew she was desperate.
Looking back on it, it kinda makes me a little sad that someone has to be that desperate to come on to me. Then there's another awkward moment in college which I will now tell you all! My non existent readers y'know I mentioned Andy that girl who dresses up as guy but is kinda hot? Well she too came on to me and sometimes still kinda does. Long story short I owe her and her friend a french kiss. Now as I've said before I've never kissed a girl so they'll have to wait a long time to get that kiss as I'm not giving my first kiss to someone who doesn't actually wanna be with me. Andy and Alice are in open relationships which for all of you who don't know basically means they have a gf/bf but it's not exclusive meaning they can fuck pretty much anyone they want and they'll still be with their bf/gf.
Marc with a C! Marc is my form tutor like my home room teacher for all you Americans. He also teaches some of my Health and Social care lessons and he my friends is a fucking legend! He's gota be the most understanding teacher I have ever had the pleasure to be taught by. He previously did a lot of work in psychiatric wards in hospitals so he's really understanding and helpful. I respect him a shit ton but not much of the class share my respect for him which kinda sucks because he's a really nice guy. But most of my class seem to be in this class because they thought Health and Social care was gunna be a breeze. Oh well moving on.
Mark with a K! Mark is the only other guy in my Health and Social care class, He's about 6'2 ish, skinny short brown hair which he's now died blue/black, kinda wonky teeth and he too is a good guy. We hung out a lot in college as we kinda had to stick together. But as the weeks went by we both branched out a bit, him more than me I'd say but meh.
Louise Young: Little bit chubby, talkative, opinionated and overal a nice gal. She doesn't seem to be afraid of much and we talked quiet a bit at college as we sat pretty near each other and unlike me she's not too scard of talking to people. She hangs around with Anna Marrie, a busty, black haired shy girl who I sometimes talk to in English. Louise has a lot more friends in college than I do as the college is right next to her old school so most of the people from her old school go to my college. Lucky cow.
Okay so, so far it just seems I'm kinda bitching and taking really superficial stances on people, but honestly I bet none of you can say you don't think like that at least once a day. Plus this is my blog I can write whatever I want XD, anyway they're just a few people I've met in college that are pretty cool, there are many more I haven't mentioned because I really can't be arsed to write a 10000000000000000 word essay.
BANDS! Yes I can kinda play guitar and yes I am trying to get a band together so far I only have me and my friend Alex Bamford who lets face it, can't play guitar to save his life. But nevertheless I'm helping him out because I have no one else to work with and I think it will be a learning experience for the both of us. Now there's a few things you need to know about Alex, so here goes. 1: Alex is spoilt rotten, he has a £250 Jackson V, a 40 watt Vox amp, a £1000 Mac book and he wants fucking everything. 2: Alex is stubborn as a rock, it's hard to persuade him to do something unless you phrase it in such a way he thinks it's either cool or he'll gain the most from it. So yeah I'm Singing and playing guitar and Alex is also playing guitar. I'm trying to get him to do simple songs because 1: I have to sing them as well as carry Alex through the song and 2: It'll help him build his self esteem and let him progress through guitar easier. Alex wants to do songs I've never heard of so that's never good so I'm sticking to getting us to play SEEK AND DESTROY by METALLICA.
I get depressed a lot as you may know by now, and College isn't sunshine a lollypops all the time. I remember one day I got so tense about homework that I scratched my neck so much it looked like a huge hickey. Like a monster hicky. Not cool. I've cried, laughed my ass off, and sighed with relief so far. My Grandpop Jim is dying of terminal cancer, My Grandad Eric has a brain tumor and has seizures and heart attacks, my little brother Leo is forever in and out of hospital with his iron deficiency, Vitamin A deficiency, hyper beta carotene anemia and a leaky aortic heat valve. On top of all that my mother is fucking a married man and then there's me in college trying to have a social life and get good ish grades. I'm in Half term holidays now and have been since last Friday and I gota say College is fucking MANIC man I wonder what the next term will hold for me. I kinda miss it as I feel like no one wants to see me outside college, seriously no one does I swear. Anyway I'm kinda bored of writing stuff now. I really hope no one I know reads this. It's messy, unbalanced and by far does not show my full opinion of everything and everyone. If you do happen to read this don't take it personal if you really want my full opinion on you come ask me and I'll give some thought and tell you. Bleh I feel bad about writing all this now but I thought almost obligated to update this blog and I wanted to get some shit off my chest to an extent I guess. Plus I needed something to do.
Anyway until next time my friends take care and D.F.T.B.A.
First up is college! It's been very....Interesting to say the least. Girls girls and more girls everywhere I frigging look and most of them are taken and snogging they're bf/gf infront of everyone. It's kinda sick the way they play tonsil tennis in such a public place although if I had someone to do that with I'd do as much as possible XD, anyway I'm one of two guys in my Health and Social care class so that always raises your chances a bit. Tons of assignments and not much time to goof off although because I'm me I somehow find a way to not do any work in class and somehow manage to get average grades. I guess if I actually did more in lessons I'd probably get really good grades but I'm a lazy shit and as I've said before I'd like some kinda social life.
So we have Alice, She's a sorta rebel, emo, punk, sexy, smart ass with blue hair, previously red that likes to wear bandanas and who doesn't show up to lessons as much as everyone else but is super frigging smart. She has tons of friends in the college so the only real time I get to talk to her is when we're in lesson. I have a feeling I could have fucked her in the toilets one time though, let me explain! I guess from the previous posts and by reading this one so far you must think I'm a right little shit who would fuck a chicken if he was paid to, trust me that's really not the case. I'm like the most innocent guy you'll ever meet; never even kissed a girl before anyway! Getting back to the story, Me, my friend Harry Reed, Andy Tylers (Girl who wants to be a guy but is actually kinda hot), and some other guy I don't know the name of but he's kinda nerdy so lets call him Melvin were all in the English block after college had ended just chilling and eventually people had to go leaving me and Alice alone. Alice from what I can tell is a very huggy, physical person so all the way through our talking and chilling session thing we had going on she was sat on my lap and hugging me etc. When everyone left we somehow got to talking about relationships and me being a virgin and her not having sex for 10 weeks and she said "I'm so fucking horny!" To which I reply "Well there's not much I can do about that." To which SHE replies "You could if you wanted to" To which I sorta bug out and say "I wouldn't even know what to do even if I did get to be with a girl". Now I may have missed out everything that happened that day because I can't remember everything but I know she was coming on to me so badly, linking that in with the fact she hadn't fucked anyone in 10 weeks I knew she was desperate.
Looking back on it, it kinda makes me a little sad that someone has to be that desperate to come on to me. Then there's another awkward moment in college which I will now tell you all! My non existent readers y'know I mentioned Andy that girl who dresses up as guy but is kinda hot? Well she too came on to me and sometimes still kinda does. Long story short I owe her and her friend a french kiss. Now as I've said before I've never kissed a girl so they'll have to wait a long time to get that kiss as I'm not giving my first kiss to someone who doesn't actually wanna be with me. Andy and Alice are in open relationships which for all of you who don't know basically means they have a gf/bf but it's not exclusive meaning they can fuck pretty much anyone they want and they'll still be with their bf/gf.
Marc with a C! Marc is my form tutor like my home room teacher for all you Americans. He also teaches some of my Health and Social care lessons and he my friends is a fucking legend! He's gota be the most understanding teacher I have ever had the pleasure to be taught by. He previously did a lot of work in psychiatric wards in hospitals so he's really understanding and helpful. I respect him a shit ton but not much of the class share my respect for him which kinda sucks because he's a really nice guy. But most of my class seem to be in this class because they thought Health and Social care was gunna be a breeze. Oh well moving on.
Mark with a K! Mark is the only other guy in my Health and Social care class, He's about 6'2 ish, skinny short brown hair which he's now died blue/black, kinda wonky teeth and he too is a good guy. We hung out a lot in college as we kinda had to stick together. But as the weeks went by we both branched out a bit, him more than me I'd say but meh.
Louise Young: Little bit chubby, talkative, opinionated and overal a nice gal. She doesn't seem to be afraid of much and we talked quiet a bit at college as we sat pretty near each other and unlike me she's not too scard of talking to people. She hangs around with Anna Marrie, a busty, black haired shy girl who I sometimes talk to in English. Louise has a lot more friends in college than I do as the college is right next to her old school so most of the people from her old school go to my college. Lucky cow.
Okay so, so far it just seems I'm kinda bitching and taking really superficial stances on people, but honestly I bet none of you can say you don't think like that at least once a day. Plus this is my blog I can write whatever I want XD, anyway they're just a few people I've met in college that are pretty cool, there are many more I haven't mentioned because I really can't be arsed to write a 10000000000000000 word essay.
BANDS! Yes I can kinda play guitar and yes I am trying to get a band together so far I only have me and my friend Alex Bamford who lets face it, can't play guitar to save his life. But nevertheless I'm helping him out because I have no one else to work with and I think it will be a learning experience for the both of us. Now there's a few things you need to know about Alex, so here goes. 1: Alex is spoilt rotten, he has a £250 Jackson V, a 40 watt Vox amp, a £1000 Mac book and he wants fucking everything. 2: Alex is stubborn as a rock, it's hard to persuade him to do something unless you phrase it in such a way he thinks it's either cool or he'll gain the most from it. So yeah I'm Singing and playing guitar and Alex is also playing guitar. I'm trying to get him to do simple songs because 1: I have to sing them as well as carry Alex through the song and 2: It'll help him build his self esteem and let him progress through guitar easier. Alex wants to do songs I've never heard of so that's never good so I'm sticking to getting us to play SEEK AND DESTROY by METALLICA.
I get depressed a lot as you may know by now, and College isn't sunshine a lollypops all the time. I remember one day I got so tense about homework that I scratched my neck so much it looked like a huge hickey. Like a monster hicky. Not cool. I've cried, laughed my ass off, and sighed with relief so far. My Grandpop Jim is dying of terminal cancer, My Grandad Eric has a brain tumor and has seizures and heart attacks, my little brother Leo is forever in and out of hospital with his iron deficiency, Vitamin A deficiency, hyper beta carotene anemia and a leaky aortic heat valve. On top of all that my mother is fucking a married man and then there's me in college trying to have a social life and get good ish grades. I'm in Half term holidays now and have been since last Friday and I gota say College is fucking MANIC man I wonder what the next term will hold for me. I kinda miss it as I feel like no one wants to see me outside college, seriously no one does I swear. Anyway I'm kinda bored of writing stuff now. I really hope no one I know reads this. It's messy, unbalanced and by far does not show my full opinion of everything and everyone. If you do happen to read this don't take it personal if you really want my full opinion on you come ask me and I'll give some thought and tell you. Bleh I feel bad about writing all this now but I thought almost obligated to update this blog and I wanted to get some shit off my chest to an extent I guess. Plus I needed something to do.
Anyway until next time my friends take care and D.F.T.B.A.
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