Well college ended for the year this past Friday and I got be honest, I'm not feeling in the mood for Christmas. It's too materialistic and it brings people together for the wrong reasons; I'm not saying I don't enjoy getting new things but it shouldn't be why everyone comes together. Everyone at college is overly excited about it and it's kinda annoying. Giving out Christmas cards is something I don't do anymore as I don't see the point in sending people I hardly know crap they don't need or appreciate and it works more or less the same way when I am given a Christmas card. Most people just give them out to everyone they know and to me that doesn't mean a thing. I am a little more thankful to the people who actually really know me sending me Christmas card and looking back on it maybe I should send them a card but then again they already know how I feel and I don't think they need anything physical from me to let them know I care, I can quite easily say "Have a good Christmas" I don't think I need to give them a card.
So other than Christmas fever what's been happening at college? I've been falling behind with my assignments, getting nowhere with girls, trying not to rip my hair out while sorting out my "band" and feeling overall a bit shit. As I've said, I'm on break now but since then I haven't even talked to anyone at all. Maybe I'm jumping the gun and people will start talking to me after Christmas but still I feel a bit neglected. My Mothers relationship with a married man went down the shitter again today but I'm sure he'll be back eventually, my Mum is a bit too soft sometimes. Every single guy that's walked through our door I've judging correctly and this guy is no different; and yet my Mum insists on being stupid about it. Oh yeah! Last Saturday I got really down and got really drunk, threw up, fell over in my sick and lied there for a few hours before getting into a bath my Mum had so kindly drawn for me, washed myself and went to bed; the following day I felt like crap. Let that be a lesson to you kiddies, alcohol is bad and should only be drank by me because no one cares what I do XD.
Christmas day is gunna be funny as fuck and awful at the same time. Like every Christmas we're going to my Grandpop's house which isn't really a big deal as we always do that; what makes it a big deal THIS year is that my Aunt and her family are coming down also. Now, my Mum isn't the smartest women on the planet as you may have guessed by now and my Aunt knows this. I guess you could just say that's how sisters are but my Mum doesn't like going there when she's there because she just can't take her older sister being mean to her, and I can somewhat understand that as I have an older brother also and he can be a prick too. Mum says we're only staying there for 2 hours and then we're going home.
This Christmas is probably going to be my Grandpops last Christmas so I'm hoping it's going to be a nice one although I can see some kinda fight.
It's 19:17pm or 7:17pm right now as I write this sentence and surprisingly I'm not finding it hard to get to sleep as Christmas comes closer. I find it hard anyway but I thought I'd find it a little harder but maybe because Christmas is so shit for me I can't be arsed to be excited.
As always I wish someone would read this, it would be nice for some feedback although as I've probably said before the feedback would probably be a little unhelpful as I only really use this to bitch.
Anyway I can't think of anything else to write so Take care, D.F.T.B.A and have a good holiday non existent readers.
